And He will make straight your path! And He will
make straight your path?
I have been a Christian since the age of five. I
have trusted God and worked for Him almost my whole life. I have been what I
would call a faithful servant. I love ministry and I know He called me into it.
I have never questioned that, but I have struggled from time to time when to
change my paths. Some things I have done have been just seasons and letting go
of those seasons have been tough, what I’m suppose to do next even tougher to
know.
Moving to Georgia has been an amazing journey but
has left me in the wilderness. Everything I knew had changed! Where I live,
people I know, my church, my surrounding and the list goes on. At the same time
there were changes going on in how I was doing in ministry. What I found was, I
was lost. It was almost like what I think people with children feel when their
children leave home. I think they call it empty nest feelings. I was in
such a panic to figure out my life that I did what I do best. I kicked in. I
started working at how to move forward, how to make things happen and find what
God wanted for me. God as given me a desire and that desire sometimes overflows
and doesn't always lead to the best directions for my life. Not that they are
situations that are good or bad, but just maybe more waste of my time kind of
things.
I am not a waiter! I don't wait to make things
happen! That has always made me who I am and it has always opened doors for me.
God didn't design me to wait. That honestly isn't something I really
understand and can annoy me. If I asked someone to do something, I'm not asking
people to do it tomorrow. That is why I just do it myself. You can ask my
hubby, the poor guy totally understands the waiting thing and he's married to a
person who is NOT a waiter. He
knows when I ask him to do something I'm probably not meaning when he finds
time, or when he sees fit. I mean for him to do it now. He has no concept of
time. He needs deadlines; I am more of a self-motivator. That's what makes us
work well together believe it or not.
But then, a few months ago as things began to
unravel in my ministries with the move, with a women's group I had and with my
own personal ministry, a couple of artist friends I have said during a
conversation. "Why don't you just wait to see what God might have for you?
See where He leads? Don't do anything and see if he directs your
path." WHAT? I mean that's all well and good for other people but
that's not how God designed me. Had they completely forgot whom they were
talking to? He leads me through my hard work. LOL! I'm a huge believer
that God expects us to show up and that we don't just stand around waiting for
Him to make things happen. I know how waiting on God to make the first move
works, and that doesn't get too many people in ministry very far.
Anyhow, I gave a half OK; I might do that but wasn't really committing to it.
Then somewhere after the move I just gave up. I thought OK, maybe I am
supposed to wait, maybe I'm washed up and this road is now the end. So I did
it, I waited and waited and waited. I also found out looking back that God was
putting things, people and opportunities in front of me as I was waiting that
didn't connect to anything and I wasn't really moving forward with. But over
time they would begin to connect.
God began connecting me with people. Some people I
didn't really know I was supposed to connect with. We had a musical connection
but I just didn't see that God wanted us to connect beyond that. Not for any
reason really other than I wasn't paying attention. And maybe I wasn't supposed
to pay attention. I think He needed to work at this for a few months, in small
steps so I could put it all together, you know let me work it out in my brain.
Before I knew it, I was back in ministry. Not that I was out by all means but
as the pun is used, "We're Back in Business". God had connected
me to people, ministries, and organizations and I did nothing but watch till it
was time for me to engage. He carved my path as I was sitting back and trusting
Him and not leaning on my own understandings. He also allowed me to look back
and see that He had worked things out for the good of me. I didn't work it out
but the He did. I needed to see that.
How many times have you taken a situation, a
feeling or a direction into your own hands rather than just praying and waiting
on God to step in for you? Proverbs 3:5-6 clearly says Trust and Acknowledge
Him. Those two things will lead us down the right path. Those two things aren't
that easy to apply in a heat of a moment or when changing a direction. So, this
week try to apply Trusting in the Lord with ALL your heart and wait, then
acknowledge Him, let Him direct your path. Life is so much easier when God is
in control rather than when I am in control. He saves me from heartache, time
and um, a few failures. But most of all, waiting teaches me that I'm not
all that! I need God, His leading, His strength, and His guidance. It's not
always the right thing for me to be in control if I'm not allowing Him to take
the wheel. We are in ministry together and together we shall work. When He says
wait, I will wait!
Just thought I would pass along my personal lesson
for the week. :)
I love reading your blog, Leah. It's so refreshing to hear the honest "wonderings" of someone who "has it altogether". Thanks for letting me into your life in such an intimate way!
ReplyDeleteThanks! Good to hear from you! Glad we can keep connected. Hope the snow hasn't shut you in all winter! :)
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